You will never know the "what if" between you and I

I'm simply sick of you. You will not shut your mouth with unwanted opinions and thoughts you share with me. You don't want me to be happy. You love to see my miserable eyes and troubled smile. It's your power to control me.
I do not care about you anymore.
I would never cry away tears for you.
I would never laugh at your pity of a joke.
I would never embrace your heavy body.
I will never smile at you again.
You mean nothing to me. Just another face in the crowd. I can't even stand your name it makes me want to hurl.
I know why you do it though. You are jealous, you have everything. But what bugs you the most is that you never had me in your arms. Never kissed my delicate lips. You never had the power to love me to the fullest. And you will never know. When time is up i will happy to never see you again.

one day you'll slip out of my arms... and i won't even notice it.

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there's the healing
In your name (In your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I would, would be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there is healing
In your name (In your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin)
I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

You

I've waited too long for you. I've wasted hours of life for you. I need too get a life seriously. Leave you behind and never look back. Start out fresh and new, with you as just a memory and nothing more.

we are all monsters deep down inside.

Her reflection in the mirror was more than her tears strolling down her cheeks. It was fear of being locked up. The cage was no more but a mere bed, candles books and a luminescent blue ball. The Monster was in love with her. Her beauty was unexplainable. Her eyes gleamed blue light that would laugh and dance when you laid your eyes upon hers. Her smile could warm up a freezing cold room in seconds. Made your insides bubble in excitement and joy. It made the Monster feel like he was not a monster but a human with feelings. Those tickled pink cheeks made her look delicate almost fragile like a china doll. Her long red hair had curls evenly symmetrical. They were smooth and shiny; you could weave pure silk from it. She was the sun in the day and the moon in the evening. You simply couldn't live without her. The Monster had to have her. He trapped her. Took her wings and placed them in the luminescent blue ball. Her freedom was gone. She was trapped and everyday all she did was stare at the ball that secured her freedom away from her. To her the Monster was the devil of the earth. He was grotesque, unbearable to look at. He had scaly skin. Half his face was burnt. The flesh that grew over it had boils and white puffy skin. His eyes dark as coal. Afraid to look in them, it might suck away life. A smile that has been broken for years. And a soul that did not live anymore. He had no freedom from his own body. So he took away hers. Now he has all they beauty in the world right in the palm of his hands. That made him free...

Love has a subtle meaning

"It will have blood; they say, that blood will have blood."

-Macbeth

Friendship is more than i ever hoped for.

The night dawns forever more. My sleep is unsettled, as i lay in my bed waiting for your call. I cannot reckon the thoughts in my head, what is going on in your unseen mind? Perhaps you are planning something? Your politeness after a raging argument between each other does not seem to collide. In turn has guilt caught up to you? Do you pity my loss in reality and you are convinced to help me? Forever more you are a book with no words. The night's dawn is beginning to end. And I'm still waiting for you call.

Every feeling stings the heart

When I sleep, I never feel rested.
When I eat, I can't taste anything.
When I smile, I feel sad.
When I read, the words don't make a picture.
When I play, the song does not come.
When I run, I can't run away.

When I breathe, the air feels dense.

When my heart beats, I can hear every thump.

Every time I close my eyes, I can't help but think of you.