You will never know the "what if" between you and I

I'm simply sick of you. You will not shut your mouth with unwanted opinions and thoughts you share with me. You don't want me to be happy. You love to see my miserable eyes and troubled smile. It's your power to control me.
I do not care about you anymore.
I would never cry away tears for you.
I would never laugh at your pity of a joke.
I would never embrace your heavy body.
I will never smile at you again.
You mean nothing to me. Just another face in the crowd. I can't even stand your name it makes me want to hurl.
I know why you do it though. You are jealous, you have everything. But what bugs you the most is that you never had me in your arms. Never kissed my delicate lips. You never had the power to love me to the fullest. And you will never know. When time is up i will happy to never see you again.

one day you'll slip out of my arms... and i won't even notice it.

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there's the healing
In your name (In your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I would, would be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there is healing
In your name (In your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin)
I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you