Would you run if I came running after you? Or would you stop and let me hold you in my arms..

Seasons come and seasons go. Birthdays are celebrated and wishes are blown. Feelings start and feelings end. We give life and we also take it away.
Life is a binding circle. It does not stop and it does not reverse. It will keep going until life is nonexistent.
We have our regrets, which tear us apart secretly inside us every single day. We have our doubts about the future. We can't be certain about what will happen or what will come of us.
What happens when life has no purpose for you? It feels like our circular earth doesn't spin. You feel alone and depressed. You are exhausted from all the egotistical people whom you share your day with. They think that they understand what is going on around them. But really they are hiding themselves from the truth. They don't want to see what you see. They are afraid.
A man who is strong and big. Has the mind of a protector but not the heart. He forces his help on you when it is not needed, and will push anyone aside to fill their gaping space with his glory. He portrays himself as a "hero".
On the other hand a scrawny man who has a heart for the needy and the poor. Is more of a "hero" to me than a man who interrogates you, to tell your feelings to him just for the indulgent pleasure of him thinking that he is helping you. In fact you are stressed out from the pig who has been tugging on your sleeve.
Can you ever mend a broken heart? A heart that has been strained, stretched, pushed to breaking point from the pain of losing the one they love most in this world. Every breath you take is for them. Every smile, every kiss is for them. To reassure yourself how much they mean to you.
What hurts most is once they stop loving you. And you feel like a part of your soul has died. You want to be left alone, to slowly forget about them and move on, until they stop you on your tracks and try to reverse time. To go back as you were before with them. It does not work. Then they tell you about their other love, the other significant person in their life. Jealousy just shreds you to pieces.
All you want to do is to reverse time. Take every birthday wish back. All the snow falls, warm summer breezes, cool fresh smell of the rain back. Take every happy memory away. And get one more chance with them. To stand there and tell them you made a mistake, And softly say I Love You.
I'm not God, I can't reverse time. I can only go forward.
My biggest regret is...
I ran when you came running after me. I ran as fast as I could, you were tired, the stitches in your chest overcame you and you stopped. You turned the other direction. I should have stopped and have allowed myself to fall into your arms.
Now I ran too far, I lost you.
I'm lost, I have to find my way back to the place I started before I met you.